Eyes of a Stranger


Eyes of a Stranger………………sometimes when I look in the mirror, I don’t know the man looking back at me……………………

All alone now
Except for the memories
Of what we had and what we knew
Every time I try to leave it behind me
I see something that reminds me of you
Every night the dreams return to haunt me
Your rosary wrapped around your throat
I lie awake and sweat, afraid to fall asleep
I see your face looking back at me, looking back at me
And I raise my head and stare
Into the eyes of a stranger
I’ve always known that the mirror never lies
People always turn away
From the eyes of a stranger
Afraid to know what
Lies behind the stare
Is this all that’s left
Of my life before me
Straight jacket memories, sedative highs
No happy ending like they’ve always promised
There’s got to be something left for me
And I raise my head and stare
Into the eyes of a stranger
I’ve always known that the mirror never lies
People always turn away
From the eyes of a stranger
Afraid to know what
Lies behind the stare (Lies behind my stare)
How many times must I live this tragedy
How many more lies will they tell me
All I want is the same as everyone
Why am I here, and for how long
And I raise my head and stare
Into the eyes of a stranger
I’ve always known that the mirror never lies
People always turn away
From the eyes of a stranger
Afraid to know what
Lies behind the stare


Update on the physical conditions of yours truly. The flight line is beating the hell out of me and it’s time to find something else.

I went to my Doc yesterday.

The feet are making things damn difficult.

He wrote a note for my bosses to find me another job at Edwards due to my physical issues of Neuropathy, Capsulitis and Plantar Faciitis in the feet. They hurt pretty much all the time and by the time I am half way through the shift on the line, I am pretty much tapped out.

I also took the DMV form to the DMV in Ridgecrest and got the Disabled Person Plates and a Placard for use when a passenger in other vehicles.

I may be headed for a disability retirement from Civil Service at 62.

The Civil Service does have to try and give me a reasonable accomodation and move to another position that is less demanding.

Doc and I also discussed the surgery option as my Podiatrist had mentioned as a possiblility. Due to only having one kidney, I cannot take anti-inflammatories. I have to find out how long I would be down from said surgery.

Wait and see, I guess.


Significant Milestone……………..31 years

This day, 31 years ago, Sharon Naatz and I exchanged vows at the First Methodist Church in Oak Harbor, Washington. Think about that………………..31 years. I was at the nine and a half year mark in my Navy Career and she said yes and accepted all that came with it………………………….Damn………………………………

We put two households together that day. Four kids who all were part of the event, three of which have blessed us with a total of five grandchildren…………………………….Sharon was 29 and I was 28, now she is 60 and I am 59.

We have had those ups and downs………….at times those have been sheer cliffs but we are still here.

DSC_0140 Wedding Day 11 June 1983

PICTURES: 747 retired from passenger service in Japan-Flightglobal

“Japanese carrier All Nippon Airways (ANA) formally retired its Boeing 747 aircraft, marking a key milestone in the type’s gradual disappearance from the world’s airliner fleet.

The widebody, which was a domestic variant of the 747-400, operated its last flight on the Tokyo Haneda-Okinawa route, says an ANA spokesman. The particular aircraft bears the registration JA8961.

The retirement marks the end of passenger service for the 747 in Japan, where the type was once widely used by both ANA and its competitor Japan Airlines, one of the 747’s first customers.”

The Big Four Engine Boeing is slowly fading away.

The rest is at the link right below.


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Damn where did the time go?


Today is the 20th Anniversary of the commencement of my retirement leave.
This date in 1993, I detached from Tactical Electronic Warfare Squadron One Four Zero on board Naval Air Station, Whidbey Island, Washington.
The trip back to my home town began. I headed up I-90 with Seattle in the rear view mirror………..I stopped at the scenic pull out on the east side of the Columbia River Gorge at Vantage……to look back for a bit. I spent 11 of those 20 years in squadrons at NAS Whidbey Island. It had been home for that long. Sharon and the kids were already in Havre, Montana in a house we had made an offer on that previous spring on the TAD/TDY that was given under the draw down.
In the following years I have become a grandfather, suffered ups and downs in employment, had a knee surgery, a broken back and a short go around with renal cell carcinoma.
Twenty years being retired from that world we all keep, those of us who take the oath, be we Soldier, Sailor, Marine or Airman…………………………….Damn where did the time go?

Some advice on women in combat from a female veteran

Some advice on women in combat from a female veteran

From Hot Air

Read and make up your own mind. The introduction is here to get you interested with the remainder at the link.

Yesterday’s column on women in combat elicited a number of passionate responses from both sides. Some of them came from proponents of the move, frequently citing alternate motives on my part. These ranged from “trying to keep women pregnant in the kitchen” and “Republicans want to lock women in the 1950s” to whichever variant of the GOP’s “war on women” you’d care to name. Many others lent a more sympathetic ear. One in particular, though, caught my attention. It was from one of America’s female veterans who served in Iraq, delivered with a first hand, been there, done that background. The Marine in question – who for purposes of publication will go by the pseudonym of “Sentry” – had previously submitted this history and opinion as a comment at National Review, but her story was compelling enough that I checked into her background, contacted her and decided to republish it here in its entirety. I offer the following as a third party testimony to stand your scrutiny on its own merits.

Possible Changes

Possible. Pay careful attention to that word.

I applied for a job just like I have in another location. It is at McConnell AFB in Wichita, Kansas.

Why Wichita? We still have a house there and three of our grandchildren are there.

Good enough reasons.

I was referred to the hiring supervisor there by the Air Force Personnel Center after doing the online application process. I applied the day the posting expired, 26 June. I got the email for the referral on 29 June. Now the waiting……………

If offered, we are going home.

What happened when Héloïse Goodley swapped her designer heels for Army boots

Héloïse Goodley thought she had a dream job when she started work as a City banker. But at the age of just 27, she traded it in for four-minute meals, ironing her own bed and singing in Nepalese – all part of Army officer training at Sandhurst. Here, the first woman to write about life at the world-famous military academy reveals some of the bizarre practices she encountered there . . .

Right good looking young lady. She was fed up with what for most was a successful career in the banking industry……..Company-Family thing like the railroad in my home town. She “left the reservation.” Breaking tradition to do something greater than one’s own self.
Read more: http://www.dailymail.co.uk/femail/article-2086655/H-lo-se-Goodley-swapped-designer-heels-Army-boots-training-Sandhurst.html#ixzz1jXOxz3ym

Michigan Bar Owners Bounce Lawmakers to Protest Smoking Ban

This is good.

What’s good for the goose is good for the gander. That private property thing is the clincher. I would love to do that here!

Specifically with Babs, Diane and Nancy!!!!!!

Read more: http://www.foxnews.com/politics/2011/08/25/michigan-bar-owners-to-blacklist-lawmakers-in-protest-smoking-ban/#ixzz1W72GbSloei

What’s Obama got against the Lone Star State? Read more at the Washington Examiner

After reading this one I do have to ask the same question.

It makes one go hmmmmmmmmm? And our fuel and energy costs are much higher as a result of this attitude. Just my opinion, ya know.

New unemployment claims rose this past week and total unemployment across the nation edged upward to 9.2 percent. The national economy simply isn’t growing anywhere near as fast as President Obama claimed it would when he and the Democratic 110th Congress pumped $859 billion worth of stimulus into it. Job creation has all but ground to a halt in recent months. If the country is not at the precipice of the second dip in a double-dip recession, it clearly is in a jobless recovery.


The one bright spot in the national economic picture is Texas, which has an economy busting out all over with new jobs. Nearly half of the estimated quarter-million new jobs that have been created since February 2009 were created in Texas. But Obama seems determined to use suffocating bureaucracy to bring Texas down with the rest of the country.

Read more at the Washington Examiner: http://washingtonexaminer.com/opinion/2011/07/whats-obama-got-against-lone-star-state#ixzz1T2UFDmUb